While contemplating this past week, what I believe happened a decade ago (with emphasis on the word believe), I realized again that forgiving myself for projecting a world of separation is my real job here; that’s what undoes unexamined fear, what loosens the white-knuckled grip of avoided, yet unfounded guilt. Along with that comes the humbling realization that my alleged individual opinions and finite perspectives are not even water molecules in the metaphoric ocean of even the holographic dream, let alone the truth that eternally blazes beyond our self concepts, including the entire polarized range of seeming tragedies to seeming victories.
I read a bit of these two eye-opening “anniversary” articles today:
Astonishing Excerpts From 20 Major Media Articles
and this one (which has been around a while):
“Oh Lucy! – You Gotta Lotta ‘Splainin To Do”
having heard both authors of these pages give talks in the recent decade.
What occurs to me now is a renewed devotion to being willing to look at the insanity in myself (disguised as insanity in ‘others’) with kindness, compassion and objectivity to undo the cause with me so that I can release my attachment to grievances, blame and the inner provincial attitude that fosters ‘we vs. they’, ‘here vs. there’ attitudes in whatever form. What’s left, after releasing the judgments, attacks and opinions, is the peaceful, unwavering sanity we all share as one.
This quote seems particularly appropriate for today from the Manual For Teachers of A Course In Miracles; 3rd paragraph of “HOW IS JUDGMENT RELINQUISHED?”
“The aim of our curriculum, unlike the goal of the world’s learning, is the recognition that judgment in the usual sense is impossible. This is not an opinion but a fact. In order to judge anything rightly, one would have to be fully aware of an inconceivably wide range of things; past, present and to come. One would have to recognize in advance all the effects of his judgments on everyone and everything involved in them in any way. And one would have to be certain there is no distortion in his perception, so that his judgment would be wholly fair to everyone on whom it rests now and in the future. Who is in a position to do this? Who except in grandiose fantasies would claim this for himself?”
As my buddy Mike reminds me, “It’s an inside job.” This metaphor works on lots of levels, doesn’t it! What if we all (here assembled in my mind) “breathed together” for true forgiveness? 🙂